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Kicked off by [personal profile] astolat, there's now a Slack community – Fan Thursday – for fans in the community who want a place to talk and organise for change in the US.

(If you've never used Slack before, don't worry: it's just a really great chat programme.)

I'd love to get more people onto the community, especially if you're in the Colorado area. Leave a comment on this post on DW (comments are screened) or PM me on Tumblr with your email address and I'll send out an invite.

If nothing else, it's a really great place to meet people in fandom who feel like we have a responsibility and ability to make change happen, especially if you don't have a RL community near you to whom you can vent. :)
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ALSO, if people need a pick me up, I'll take prompts in any fandom I know. Or just ask me to write something original.
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If anyone wants to just talk/vent/talk-vent about other things, feel free to just... come into the comments and say hi and stuff. I'm finding that even if I'm mentally coming around to things, I'm community-starved right now. So, yeah. Open invitation, even if you're just randomly drifting by.

Well then.

Nov. 9th, 2016 07:32 am
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I've got nothing.

I want to do something positive instead, so if you'd like a cute postcard in the mail? PM me or leave a comment (auto screen is on) here on DW.
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Trick or Treat gave me an embarrassment of Vorkosigan riches!


Penance (308 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Simon Illyan & Aral Vorkosigan
Characters: Simon Illyan
Additional Tags: Trick or Treat 2016, ToT: Chocolate Box, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene, treat
Summary:

Simon Illyan reflects on the past



Aral Vorkosigan (0 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Aral Vorkosigan
Additional Tags: Fanart, ToT: Treat - Freeform, Trick or Treat 2016, Extra Treat
Summary:

Portrait of Aral Vorkosigan.



Cleaning House (459 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Simon Illyan
Additional Tags: Trick or Treat 2016, ToT: Trick - Freeform, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene
Summary:

Simon Illyan, emptying out boxes...



So much Illyan and Aral love. :D
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TIME TO WRITE A LOT OF WORDS
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Dear author,

You got me! I hope you'll have a fun Yuletide, so if you've got an idea that you really want to run with - write it! Everything in this letter is just a suggestion; optional details are optional and I am an omnivorous reader who doesn't really have squicks and I'm excited to read whatever it is you come up with. :)

The hyper long version here: Vorkosigan Saga, The Culture, The Traitor Baru Cormorant, Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu )
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* Fraiser is hilarious and hilariously addictive
* Work is BLAAAAAAAAAAH
* My Overwatch people still play with me, which is a miracle...
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Updating from work because I forgot my phone, somehow. I don't know how that happens.

Things:

  • Seriously thinking about coding a DW/Tumblr crossover with non-rebloggable posts that can go in and out of threaded comments/chat, with activity (posts + comments) being the lifeblood of a stream. Like, seriously thinking about it. ? ??? ? I am just so frustrated with this no-inbetween-land and tumblr in general

  • Going through Visions of Infinity. Maths writing, even when doing okayish, is... a bad read. Going to keep chugging. Might end up writing maths into yuletide this year (?!)

  • Because [personal profile] pendency, I now need to write drow fic. Like. Zak/Jarlaxle drowfic. Badwrong drowfic. It's like I'm 14 again, except equipped with more cynicism.



Whaddup with you guys?
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!!! I'm sorry this wasn't here when assignments went out!

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Right now, I’ve got a problem with group frustration.

I’m punching above my paygrade at work – and it’s frustrating. As a personal ethic, I believe you should punch however hard you can punch. Not people; people-cases you should modulate (do I need to bulldoze this person? Do they need to know all this information? Am I patronising them? Am I over-valuing them?). But work is work. Do the best job you can.

But at a certain point a few weeks ago I just hit a plateau where I just don't give as much of a shit anymore. Not no shits: I value being valued. I value doing my work. I'm actually valued by my peers and my superiors. I've gained some quantity of respect from them.

Still, the adage of never work for free? Holds. I am, obviously, not working for free. But they won't promote me this year because of corporate restructuring, and they couldn't raise me last year because of corporate bullshit. So now I'm a first-and-a-half year hire prancing roughshod over company-wide policy, shooting from the hip because every time I ask would any senior like to point this gun? the answer is eh, do what you judge best because we don't care enough to not trust you.

That's perhaps an oversimplification. But here's the difference between a leader I'll follow into the trenches (a Rufus Shinra, maybe, or a Kusanagi Motoko) and a leader I'll watch trip into a ditch: the former makes you feel part of an optimistic system.

I don't think an optimistic system necessarily needs to be a happy system. Maybe progressive is a better word? Or a vision? Whatever the word. I want a charismatic and technical leader. I need a charismatic and technical leader. Sell me your world and I'll build it for you, because I'm a good foreman but gods above am I a bad architect.

And right now it feels like I'm architecting my own path. Just bushwhacking through a system of incompetency on the right and vision that fell through on the left. Ambitious and vaguely rubbish. I'm thinking for my leaders, in some ways, and I don't want to do that. I want to want to be part of a system, and that's hard when I feel like I'm constructing bits of it out of bullshit I pull out of my ass.

Point is, there's group frustration. My seniors want shit done, but don't have the capacity or creativity to see it through. I want to get shit done for my seniors, but don't have the entirety of technical experience or, let's face it, clout to push their agenda through for them. They're frustrated at the system. I'm frustrated with their frustration at the system. We all hold hands during coffee breaks and understand the hard work we're doing, but I feel like an idiot monkey bashing nearly-Hamlet out on a typewriter.

I came home today fucked up and tired, and I thought to myself - let's play a game. I logged onto Overwatch, which is the dumbest idea I've had since... I'm not sure. I can't think of something I've done that's so dumb. Because after 9-5 of group frustration, I jumped right into the most group-frustration-y game possible. Six strangers shooting shit and failing. Nearly succeeding, too, which is worse. It'd have been better, maybe, if I'd just died 20 times in a row and done nothing. But I was mediocre. 60% okay. And each time at the end I'd zone out, or fuck up, or our team would fall to pieces, and it sucks.

I don't know where I'm going with this one. I think the gist is, I/you/people have to have a sense of balance. Frustration has to be balanced: either with success, or compensation, or satisfaction. And satisfaction in a job well done, when the job is – if not pointless as a learning exercise – fruitless as an executive one? Is nothing.

/sighs This is a ramble. Pied pipers don't exactly fall from the sky. Maybe I just need to learn how to play the fucking flute.

In other news, I've given up on this city in a lot of ways. I think instead of meeting people, I need to get the fuck out of here in a year or two: and in the meantime? Just... self-improve. Learn some Latin, pick up an instrument, get fit at the gym, relearn my cursive, read a bunch of good books, just hone hone hone until I can take comfort in time well spent, even if there's missing good company.
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Wow. This is fucked, world. This is really, really fucked.

Just...

There shouldn't be a routine for dealing with grief and loss for the LGBTA community, but here I am. Trying to find the words and realising what's about to spill off the tips of my fingers is a checklist. Keep calm, carry on–

/logs off
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Boy is taking a shower and I am sitting here reflecting on the strangeness that is my life after 25 years.

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* Kitchen is coming down (!!!!)
* Wallet is blowing up, as a result
* Got an enormous garden plot; I now have genetic greed
* Work is just a line of incompetent people sometimes
* Fun things with my hair
* I've missed every single midyear challenge, I feel: if anyone has any other prompts/challenges/bingos out there...
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Declutter has sort of failed in that I ran out of energy to pull everything out all at once. I may give it a second whack today, unless I go a-writing letters.

It is hard being in the wrong country for everything.
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I'm going to try a major declutter tomorrow. Serious one. Throw out 50% of my stuff declutter. We'll see how it goes.
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Nice hike today, and while I was out there I had a couple of thoughts about why I liked Three Body Problem beyond "cool words." All my own opinion, 'course.

Spoilers blacked out )
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Just wrapped up Liu Cixin's Three Body Problem and that was a bloody fine read. Some really good, thought-provoking bits and baubles of physics – theoretical and applied! – and some of the finest damned description of multi-dimensional thinking I've ever read packed into delicious historical context with lots of sideways look at the progression of science as a social phenomenon. In a sci-fi book! In a sci-fi book! I haven't enjoyed myself this much in ages.

Going to pick up the second book now, and just unwind. It's been a long-ass 2016 already, but... Not bad. Busy, but not bad. Not doing too good on my original/fic writing resolutions, but work is going – well. I can't really internet anymore because I'm so tired coming back from the job, but I think it'll start to... burn in.

I still want to get more social goals fulfilled, but for now? This is... all right. It's been a while since life was... all right.

upd8

Mar. 2nd, 2016 09:07 pm
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* No, not dead
* Yes, new car
* Yes, new things at job
* No, haven't managed to write anything original ):
* Yes, have written lots of boys
* No, haven't managed to get cards out to a lot of people I owe them to
* Yes, miss all the DW and tumblr people ):
* Yes, Deadpool was amazing
* Yes, Kwaidan is amazing
* Yes, Tale of the Heike is amazing
* No, I still haven't found a fandom from this century

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