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25 things meme, to confuse you and cover up the lack of real fic!
1. I don't see anything wrong with caring. :D I don't see the need to turn off, to compartmentalise and/or to be afraid of the world being the hard/evil place that it is. The world's always going to kick you in the teeth if you open your mouth and smile - but every once in a while, smiling and holding out that hand gets you so much more in return. Those people, friends and family are reason enough for me to believe, and to have some idealism on the backburner even when things say, no, not now.
2. I desire to be ambidextrous, but never have the patience to get this done.
3. I enjoy being who I am, and being happy with who I am, and was brought up with the knowledge that I am who I am. Not to say that my parents are extraordinarily liberal conservatives, but their creed has always been independence in thinking, and that's helped me be a lot more comfortable with myself than a lot of the people I see around me.
4. I am so hopeless at my "mother tongue" it's not even funny. Except when people ask me to read things, and then it's hilarious.
5. On my 18th birthday, I forced people out to dinner and then woke up the next day to study my brains out. *BEAMS* I have this wonderful ability to have my birthday fall on inauspiciously short study breaks before inexplicably important examinations.
6. I really want to read the Bible, though not in a religious sense.
7. I love tea. I love all kinds of tea. I drown in tea, I drink enough loose-leaf to hop up a hippo, and I adore those little pyramid-like teabags which are so very, very tasty.
8. It's been broken for a while now, but when I have my watch it goes on my right wrist, not my left.
9. Loneliness drives me mad after a period of time, but I cannot work or exist without being alone for at least a certain portion of my day. Being surrounded all the time makes me crabby and a little nervous. D:
10. There's nothing better in the world to me than sitting alone in an airport before getting onto a plane. Horizons suddenly mix and melt.
11. I have an amazing ability to end up being close friends - online, not so much in real life where the social barriers are harder to vault - with people who are older than me.
12. I fear I've forgotten to learn how to read, not because of the internet so much as because life's been so fast-paced the last couple of years that I think I need to cultivate the habit of sitting down with a book again.
13. I'm not a very sporty person by training, but I love participating and going out to be sporty-ish as much as possible: I like to cycle to the beach underneath a sweltering sun, I like to take short runs in the evening wind, I like to torture myself by letting instructors drag me up mountain ranges in New Zealand, I like to paddle long-distance and puke over the edge of a kayak because I'm easily seasick...
14. I wish I could write original fiction, but I'm not sure if it's fear that's holding me back or a sincere disability.
15. I think sex between partners who are dedicated to a relationship negates the absolute need to abstain until marriage; I think sex between partners who aren't in a relationship to stay in it for the long term is strange; I think abstinence is cool if you believe in it; I think sex is cool if you believe in it; I think my society's not nearly as open about it; I think I'm a little glad that we are, as opposed to being crass about it.
16. I need a goal to drive me to being the best I can be - and it's hard for me to find large enough or important enough a challenge on my own or for my own sake (I find it selfish). But when I am in a project that's bigger than myself, god, you could set me on fire and I probably wouldn't notice for all the stuff I'd do. :D
17. I sometimes feel like I've wasted a lot of my life now and that I've become old - in the year sense, not the mentality sense - without doing what I could've/should've done. Dawww.
18. I am pretty pale?
19. I love Subway something wicked.
20. There's nothing better than hanging out by myself in a cafe as the world moves around me.
21. Exams, I do not understand them; I do not understand how to study more than 2 days in advance for them.
22. I want a real job so bad, and there's this internship thing that I have to turn down because of my obligations to something else, and MY INTERNAL RUFUS SHINRA SCREAMS.
23. I really like Tseng.
24. I'm really bad at thinking of anything else to say at this point; it mirrors my conversational ability with those I don't click with.
25. There really is a feeling of clicking (uh, grammar) that happens when I meet or talk to people whom I'm going to end up being close to; ohhh ohhhhh all about chemistry!
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Today I came home to find the bestest gift ever on my doorstep, and tomorrow at 8 ay em I have this meeting I've been dreading, and this slow, very Balthier smile just spread across my lips and I could not restrain myself; did not want to, in fact, neither with rope nor self control nor ideas of 'appropriate humour for the biggest state energy commission's boardroom', and my bestest gift ever now sits atop a pile of feasibility and costing reports, glowing with perfection.
I wrote you a card, enveloped it, and stamped it, and put it in the car, and now I have no recollection as to whether I posted it or not.
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*g* If phantom cards appear in my inbox, I'll let you know.
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I'll refrain from saying things like, you've trained me well sensei.no subject
I think this is necessary Tseng fodder. HAWAIIAN SHIRT FTW
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5. My birthday always falls on the first week of exams. I am always too lazy to organise a celebration.
9. Ditto. The feeling I get is of extreme claustrophobia. It helps that I have my own room and that our house is on an acreage; the existence of others is not imposed upon us. At the same time, when I don't see others for too long I get a similar feeling, except it's the isolation that's suffocating, rather than the presence of people.
11. My offline friends all tend to be older than me (some of them only by three or four years, but occasionally there's upwards of a decade between us). Strangely enough, I tend to get along better with them than people of my own age.
12. YES. 95% OF MY FICTION INTAKE THIS PAST YEAR OR SO HAS BEEN OFF THE INTERNET. UNI LIFE DOES NOT HELP AT ALL.
14. Do it. I'll offer you cookies and other tasty morsels to help you along the way.
16. I regret that I always need an external goal to get me going, as though personal improvement is somehow not motivation enough. I feel this is a weakness of mine.
17. I empathise. So much. I've even made a list of the things I need to do before I turn 20. It's a word document. I have it open right now D:
19. I loved Subway. I went through a phase about two years ago where I would have it second or third day for about a month or two. Then I got sick of it, and couldn't stand the smell it. Now that I have it in moderation, and it's back on the list of things that I like.
23. NO, REALLY? YOU CONSTANTLY SURPRISE ME.
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5. D: D: D:
9. Amen to space.
11. I guess school and social structuring have stuck me on the monoage spectrum - but everyone on this flist seems to be older than me, for miraculous reasons. :D
23. I KNOW, RIGHT.
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Don't bother, it's overrated... the plots make no sense and don't fit well together, and the chararization is horrible ;)
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19) Espeically the Italian BMT.
20) One of life's most perfect pleasures.
23) Ditto.
*glomp*