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  • get changed to a different project at work that requires me to pick up a new front-end framework;
  • crash car, badly. No one is injured but the car is crashed, I have to go to court for insurance reasons, and have I mentioned crashed car?;
  • learn car is beyond saving;
  • fly home literally across the world for three days worth of new year's celebrations;
  • get new car because insurance is wonderful;
  • return back from literally across the world, completing 40+ hours of flight time only to get power tripped on by border control officials whose sole job at this point seems to be making people who legally enter the US fear for their livelihoods;
so. yes. um. my wordcount is not doing too hot. i'm okay! just sort of... shellshocked. and in spite of all of that, 2016 still seems to be doing better than 2015.

this month's resolutions
  • lose .8kg
  • accomplish work goal #1 and #2 at least
  • write one piece of porn for AO3
  • arrange to have 1 personal trainer session in march

SO IF I HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND THAT'S WHY

[EDIT] Also I tried to get my hair dyed black-blue but I literally ended up with black. Salon's so expensive that I'm not sure they'll refund me if I go back being like, so... That didn't... work out at all....

[EDIT2] Also started garden for the new year. This time around: every salad green mix known to mankind; butterhead; romaine; trout leaf; some wonderful roma looking tomato; arugula; spinach; two ambitious beans; two even more ambitious chillis

Weerrrds

Jan. 21st, 2016 09:58 pm
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So, in an attempt to not be totally a shambles for [community profile] getyourwordsout, I'm keeping track of how much I'm writing drabbles in my RP as well. Which is a strange thing to do, since a) I've written in this format and with Elemental for so long it... barely even counts? It's as second-nature as breathing to me most days now, and having that other person around to both cheerlead and read in a zero-stress, not-here-to-impress mode is like having nuclear energy in an otherwise steam-powered era. That metaphor got away from me. Also b) since it's almost 100% original characters or iterations at this point, there's no fret. There's no plot, even though there is a lot of accidental plot. It's mindless self indulgence and

I realise that's utterly the point of something like this challenge: to general enough critical mass that I find myself at a point where I can declare the garbage heap a mountain of potential instead /grumbles

Still, it's hard – I've written most of my best fics when I was alone. And now I've got about... 0 personal time? I wake up, I do 15 minutes of stretches, I write in longhand, get breakfast, then go code for 8 hours. I get home, make dinner, optionally go to the gym, eat dinner, then watch tv with Boy for a few hours, bang out some RP on the side, and then fall asleep in a haze. Weekdays barely exist for me. Weekends are better, but a lot of it is recovering from the weekday.

Blathering )

Hurrah! You've made it through an entirely rambling post about mental health diagnositics, way too much personal information, and Aristotle. /o\ To think that post was supposed to be "I want more personal time in the evenings" and nothing more...
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OKAY US GOVERNMENT, YOU CAN TAKE MY MENTAL HEALTH AND YOU CAN TAKE MY SENSE OF REALITY AND YOU CAN TAKE MY EVERYTHING BUT YOU CAN'T TAKE MY WORDS.

Basically, my life is mostly shambles. Writing makes things less shambly. Give me a prompt - any fandom in the tags; hell, any fandom: I'll look it up and make stuff up if I have to at this point - just give me something to do that isn't fall apart at my computer screen. It would help beyond words.

 

A universe of unmapped grief and love
And new master light is beyond
The pleiades and plow and southern stars.

O soaring
Icarus of outworld, burn bright
The traceries of known skymarks,
Slide the highway planets behind
Your clear waxed wings.

Go conquer the everywhere left
Beyond your sad confinement
In a predicted bonehouse,
Witch thrown riddle of flesh
And water.

O soar until nothing
remains but great glittering holes
In the black godspun shirt over your head.

- John Fairfax